for those who have mistaken my twinkle star and me...

~*~

don't judge me!

these words are truly mine
but are not truly me
they might indeed be a whine
but are just a part of me

i feel, i sense, i live
not just for the joyfulness
i listen, i care, i receive
not only the happiness

but i should be drain
i must not weep
though this unbearable pain
is only for me to keep

hence, in this kinda way
my twinkle star sets me free
retaining the sadness grey
not to be taken into me

so look deeply into my eyes
and seek for the sorrow
i dare you uncovering my disguise
right here right now to show

frozen

i was moving backwards
steadily fast returning home
by intercity, yester-evening

i could see in the field, the bunch of trees
running away from me
left me nothin but the freezin' breeze

[iced me within the hands of time]

i could see in the sky, the white clouds
drawning away from me
left me nothin but the freezin' shrouds

[iced me within the hands of time]

and though the sun got itself girthed, but i could still see
the bright shining path down to earth, as a blessing on me

[rotterdam-denhaag-delft]

Enschede Nite on July

pssst.. be quiet..
hear the whisper of the wind
callin out my name

"wake up and get up, dear
for the nite sky is so clear

breath the air and don't cry
for it's just another meteor passing by

feel the glimpse and don't defy
for the path would not gone by

so say goodnite,
not goodbye.."

[for all my dearest enschede friends, my meteors...]

Scheveningen

ada pantai indah tak berujung
ada langit cerah tak berbatas

menyeruku untuk berteriak,
for it's just like what i used to do,
tuk keluarkan galau bimbang isi hatiku

tapi aku hanya terdiam... pejamkan mata...
dan kurasakan angin membelai...


ada burung camar terbang rendah diatas rambutku
ada sisa ombak terhempas di sela-sela sepatuku

membujukku untuk ikut larut...
for it would wash away my tears,
tuk hanyutkan lelah jiwaku...

tapi aku hanya terdiam... pejamkan mata...
dan kurasakan angin membelai...


so fly me,
just fly me away from here...

a query upon a rainbow

if only i could live through this rain
and knit my time for the sunshine

would a rainbow ease my pain
til everything be fine?

- time by time... utrecht centraal-

Apeldoorn Sky

seharusnya, hariku cerah...

tapi entahlah

... angkasa tak mau berbenah

awan-awan itu masih saja berjejal disana!

awan mendung
awan hitam
awan putih

membuat penatku tak kunjung enyah!

12 juli 13:13

Once Upon a Dawn

... d a n

anginpun berhembus
membawa awan putih pergi

meninggalkan angkasa
tanpa pesan

begitu saja

berlalu

h.e.n.i.n.g

...a remembrance, through time and space...

...rapuh...

dalam ragu
aku l u r u h

dalam diam
aku h a n y u t

dalam sadar
aku r a p u h !

[maka... maafkanlah hatiku, cinta...]

from helen's poetry '98: "faisal"

unforgetable you

mengingatmu selalu, sal,
hadirkan bayang semu disisiku,
berikan aku keraguan dalam hidupku,
hapuskan satu harapan tentangmu...

kucoba melawan hadirmu...

diatas segala asa, mm...

~*~

lovable you

mengingatmu selalu, sal..
hadirkan senyum manismu dalam lamunanku
berikan aku semangat 'tuk memulai hari-hariku
wujudkan keceriaan dan kedamaian dalam hatiku

sayang kamu selalu...